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April 2, 2020

Hello

Well March aka Multipe Sclerosis Awareness month is official over and now I can talk about anything. Well I could then too but I wanted to bring awareness. The sad part is I don’t have anything to talk about. Lmao. I accomplished no goals because they all involved money and I need that money for bills. Lol. I received a note from the apartment manager letting me know they don’t give a shit, rent is still due. Ok, gotcha. I’m sure my other debtors don’t give a shit either. No, I could probably call and skip a couple of payments but my ultimate goal within the next 2 years is to have all my debts eliminated. I am moving and the only things I want to take with me is clothes and furniture. I don’t want anything else weighing me down. Not even a man unless it is my nephew. Lmao

Seriously though, I had a few things I wanted accomplished by the end of March. For one, I wanted to start a new blog. And this would have been the perfect time. A good portion of people are off work including most of my friends. And this blog is for them. So this blog became an idea from our group texts. My friends are funny and crazy with no filters. Kinda like me but a little worst. They would probably disagree but I don’t care. Lol. My goals is to create a blog where each of them can post anonymously and it would be rated R for sure. It will be a private blog that requires permission to access due to the content not being for just anybody. And honestly once everything financially is taken care of for this month, I may still do it. It will give adults only some entertainment in these uncertain times.

Still haven’t purchased my GoPro 😫. Yep, that is on hold as well. It is so hard to be a responsible adult. And totally overrated. I don’t have any adventures to record anyway so I guess I can suck this one up. I still have my amazing phone that takes awesome pictures like this.

Literally just made it before the sunrise.

I know that we have all had to put our lives on hold. It can be discouraging and a little depressing. For some odd reason, I am still filled with excitement for the possibilities. I am rediscovering parts of me that I have buried due to being consumed with day to day life. I have almost finished crocheting two blankets already. And that is a feat for me. Lol. Im going to purchase some puzzles to work on. What have you done that you haven’t done in a while? What talents are you rediscovering? What hobbies old and new have you started? I believe that we should not lament this time but use it wisely. Life will resume. And it will be different. Let’s learn ways to find peace and hobbies to occupy our time in a positive way. To be better. To be stronger and more resilient. I am going to try meditation again. I heard it works miracles. And I want a miracle 😀.

I know this is all easy for me to say because I am childless and husbandless(yes I know it is not a word). For those of you that are comfortably crowded in the house with your loved ones, well…good luck. Lmao. Just kidding. I would think that this is an opportunity for deeper relationships. I don’t know. So I just hope that you all are making the best of this situation. And don’t feel bad if you need to get out and go for a drive by yourself. Or a walk in the park by yourself. Or any other activity that we are allowed to participate in by yourself. Continue to live with caution, not fear. Wash your damn hands and be well and whole. Much love to you all.

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March 29, 2020

This Too Shall Pass

A lot has changed since my last post. The coronavirus continues to spread and claim lives daily. Other countries have went on complete lockdown to eliminate the spread of the coronavirus. We have two deaths in my county, Lucas, from the virus and the number of people affected changes every day. They have shut down restaurants, beauty and barber shops and various businesses. Others have lessened their store hours and set aside hours for seniors and more vulnerable people to shop for essentials. A great number of people are forced to file for unemployment. This is a time where people are allowing fear to take over. But there are others who are like fuck it and still travelling and living their best life. I guess people handle crisis differently.

I am sitting at my spot by the water and this is the most people I have ever seen on the trail ever, seriously. Couples walking together, families and individuals walking dogs. People desperate to get out of the house and doing one of the few activities they can do. Me, I’m just living. My normal life is pretty introverted to the point that it could be called quarantine. Lol. I spend time with those I want to and avoid the shit out of most people. The only difference right now is I am not spending time with the people I want to going out for food and drinks. I am watching sunrises, taking drives in my car by myself, crocheting and watching TV. Which are things that I would be doing anyway. Just doing more of it now.

I need to do some reading. But I want to finish these blankets first. I have a terrible habit of having too many irons in the fire. I want to focus on finishing one thing before starting another. The blankets I have been working on is for people affected by Multiple Sclerosis. I have been giving them out for the last 3 years at Walk MS. I guess I won’t be doing that this year because the MS walk has been canceled. I still want to finish the blankets though. I am sure I can find people to give them to. I spoke with my cousin last night and she said she has been doing puzzles with her daughter. Ohhhh…I love puzzles. Putting this on my list of things to do for sure.

People with MS are part of the vulnerable population. There is medications such as Gilenya, Ocrevus, Mayzent and Lemtrada that suppresses the immune system in an effort to slow down the progression of MS. My current treatment is Ocrevus. This makes me more susceptible to contracting the coronavirus. It also makes me vulnerable to dying from the virus if I contract it. As I said before, I do not plan on continuing my fight against MS with the assistance of this medication. Or any other immunosuppressive medication for that matter. They just open me up to too many unwanted possibilities. With there being so many other alternatives on the market, I am happy I can choose a different medication.

At this point, I do work for an essential agency but every job is not essential, therefore I will not be working. I will be on temporary unemployment until April 6th or longer. With all the factors that I listed above, I was the best candidate to be off. It made me sad but of course I understand. The day will come when most of us can go back to our normal routines. For others, who have lost loved ones will have to establish a new normal. We will all be changed in some way. I don’t know what people are getting out of this. I don’t know how people are affected. I am just hoping we come out of this better. I can dream right? Lol. If you are bound to your home, start a new hobby, catch up with people you haven’t talked to in a while, read, write. But most importantly, be well and whole. Much love to you at this time and always.

March 1, 2020

Marching Into A New Day

February has come and gone in the blink of an eye. I wish that I could say that I rocked it out this month and everything went well. I didn’t and it didn’t. The good thing is I am not discouraged or negative about the results. I am aware that sometimes things don’t go as planned and we need to readjusted and continue to pursue our goals. That is where I am on this first day of March. I will narrow down what goals I can accomplish this month and make it happen. I believe that I can still achieve them all by the end of the year. And that is what is most important.

I usually have a terrible time committing to anything on Netflix. My life fear of commitment to relationships transfers over to my Netflix and chill streaming relationship. Or Hulu and chill. I just don’t want to be two episodes in and decide I don’t like the show. Now I have just wasted 2 hours of my life. So it is a surprise that I am almost done with a show. My friend told me about this new dating show called Love Is Blind on Netflix. There is a male side and a female side. They go into these little rooms called pods with a piece of colored glass separating them. They cannot see each other at all. Based on the emotional connections that they make with each other the man proposes, or the woman if you like, to the person on the other side. Now they still have not seen each other. Once the proposal has been made they do this big reveal. The couples then go on a vacation together, move in and ultimately have a wedding. All in about 40 days or so. Very interesting concept.

If I had been approached about this, I would have said yes. I am so shallow! I don’t think that looks are everything but I believe they do play too big of a part in an attraction for me. If I am not immediately attracted to a man, there is a slim chance that he will grow on me with his personality and great qualities. I have already friend zoned him in my mind. I know that is terrible. I have tried dating websites and I swipe left on looks even without reading their profile. Now in my defense, if a man is attractive and he doesn’t believe in God, I am swiping left on him as well. My man doesn’t have to look like a Brad Pitt or Idris Elba, but I do need to find him attractive. But maybe if I was presented with a great personality, funny, open and considerate man without seeing him first, I would be okay. Wonder if they are going to have a season 2?

March is Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Awareness month. Besides this post, all other post will be dedicated to MS. There are new things going on and I would like to share it with you all. If you know me, I am not a sad person even though I have MS but I do speak my truth. I will tell you if all is not well. Nothing I say in relation to MS is to get pity or sympathy. It is just to inform. I didn’t truly know what Multiple Sclerosis was until I discovered I had it. And most people don’t know until I share my story. So I am willing to share to inform.

As this year keeps moving by so quickly, I just hope that no one loses sight of the excitement that you had when this year started. It is still the beginning and each new day brings its own set of possibilities. A lady was approached in a subway terminal and asked to complete the lyrics. This one little incident on the way to meet a friend for lunch changed her life. She has went on Ellen and sang for millions of people watching TV, on YouTube and Instagram. Why can’t our lives change just that suddenly? I believe that it can. So please don’t give up. Even if it seems as if you have been fighting the same fight for years. It has an end date. Continue to be well and whole.