Ebony’s Playlist: What’s on Repeat? – Sexy Saturday Pt. 4

Sexy Saturday doesn’t have to be all sexily charged songs. Some songs can be for pre-game activities. Dancing around, straighten up, shaving your legs, just setting the mood. Thinking about all that is to come, no pun intended. Listen to these songs, and add them to your playlist, if you like.

Cosmic Love by Jade Novah

I have to thank Terrell Grice once again for introducing me to this artist. Never heard of her before seeing her on his show. Now, I have multiple Jade Novah songs on my playlist. Her voice is really beautiful. She has expanded her career and is now acting. I haven’t watched anything that she has been in lately. I previously watched a musical by Todrick Hall called Forbidden that she starred in. It was a little weird, but I liked the song Play that she and Todrick sang.

Cab Ride by Tweet

This song is kinda funny. She was backseat driving the whole way. Tweet even pointed out the cab driver needing air in his tire. She was not playing about getting to her sex appointment. Not exactly sure I agree with her reason for going, but not my business. Lol.

Imagination by Avant

This is my favorite song on the album, Director. I was still warring with myself because there are some other songs that may be a better fit. I can always use them on future playlists. My interpretation of this song is him describing a sex dream. Wanting to complete before waking up. Then the alarm going off, perfection! Ending with a guitar solo. I don’t know who he worked with on this album, but he should do it again and again. These songs will never go out of style.

Use Me by Miguel

This song is interesting to me. Usually sex songs are men telling women what they are going to do to them. This song puts him in a place of vulnerability, almost submissiveness. He says, “Danger in your eyes, baby. You can devour me. Defile me, yeah.” What does that even mean? I hope it ain’t nothing too nasty 😂. While looking for the Youtube video to include in this post, I found a live version of this song. He started the song off with lyrics from The Zombies’ Time of the Season. I guess the melody of that song inspired this song. Specifically, the part where the song says, “What’s your name? Who’s your daddy? Is he rich like me?” Going back and listening to that song, the melody is similar. It is amazing how artist get their inspiration.

I don’t know how people/content creators do it. You have to look for source material, write about, edit, and upload. On a constant basis, along with all your other life responsibilities. I am failing at it! I think I am doing okay where the life responsibilities are concerned, but I stay lacking on the content. I can do this! I can do this! I will do this! You all be well and whole and look for more content coming soon. I will do this! Much Love 🧡 💚

Ebony’s Playlist: What’s on Repeat? Ep. 7 – I Got A Crush On You

I love a good crush. Seeing someone and feeling all these irrational feelings. Getting giddy just hearing their name. Giggling when you tell your friends and you can’t stop smiling. All the possibilities. In your mind, they are perfect and they say exactly what you want them to say. The best! I aspire to have at least one crush a year. It reminds me that I actually have the capacity to like someone. I chose these songs because they describe the different aspects of having a crush perfectly.

Obvious by Christina Aguilera

Christina Aguilera’s self-titled debut album came out in 1999. This would have put her at 18-19 years old when this song was released. So, when she says, “I’m feeling like a little girl”, uhh sweetie, you were. I know most people wouldn’t even know this song. More familiar with her other songs, Genie in a Bottle and What A Girl Wants. And of course, Reflection from the Disney movie Mulan. Reflection introduced me and the world to Christina Aguilera and back in the day I brought her CD, and read the cover front to back and over again. I got stuck on this song. I am probably the Queen of Crushes so this particular song was one of my favorites from the album.

Not Tonight by Elle Varner

I can’t explain it, but Elle Varner’s album Perfectly Imperfect, keeps me coming back again and again. I feel like there is a song for so many situations in love, and depending on how I feel and what is on my mind, I can find a song to play on repeat to match my mood. Not Tonight speaks to my Queen of Crushes heart. I literally had a crush this year and this song came to mind when I was going through the worst of it. I am now at 2%, and I am almost over my crush. I won’t need to overdose on this song for much longer. Mind you, I have been at 2% since June 😂.

Dreaming of You by Selena

This song is the title track from Selena’s crossover album of the same name. Unfortunately, she was killed before she could see the success this song and the album would become. There is so much I love about this song. One of my favorite parts is when she actually gets the man, even though I think you shouldn’t date your crush. They rarely ever live up to the hype. Still, I can just imagine what it must feel like to have all these feelings and to find out the person feels the same way. Another part I love is at 4 minutes and 10 seconds. Just a beautiful adlib and I love what she did with her voice.

wish that I could by UMI

UMI is ready to date and have sex with her crush. She has gone past the giddy, irrational feelings. Get it girl! Lol. Someone has to be brave. When I was younger, I was brave enough to make the first step towards my crush. That step let me know to leave them where I found them 😂. I remember it was this guy that worked at the bank and I was so smitten. When I waited in line, I would do the count to see if I would get him as my teller. One day, I gave him my number. It was the beginning of the end. One time, I was talking to him on the phone and he told me when he runs out of juice, he melts popsicles to drink 🤦🏾‍♀️. I hope UMI has better luck.

I would love to hear one of your crush stories! I definitely have a few more stories. I didn’t learn my lesson right away with Popsicle Boy. I continued to have delusional high hopes towards a few other crushes before I got some sense. These songs allow me to enjoy, and reminisce about the best parts of having a crush. I hope there is at least one song that you like and add to your playlist. Be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚

P.S. – Honorable Mention

Every time I read the title to this blog post, I sing it the way that she does in this song 😂. This is probably the first song that I was aware someone was singing about a crush. This is such a great song from my youth. The dance moves y’all. Lol.

Crush On You by The Jets

Book 49

Using my right that people fought and died for. 

As of 5:29 am today, it has been a full week since I turned 49 years old. I wanted to write about the start of this book last week, but I hadn’t figured out who I wanted to be for the next 365 days. Listen, I have a better idea now, but I’m still not solid on it. Well, I am not solid on the steps to execute my goals. One thing I was completely solid on was that this book will have a soundtrack. Songs that represent the three areas of my life I want to focus on this year,  Love, Purpose, and Connection.

Love

I have been obsessed with this song. When I think of love, this song plays in my head, on repeat. Meet the Sun by Joseph Solomon speaks to my heart on another level. I really like him. The lyrics 🥲. Meet the Sun represents to me how I want a man, who will become my boyfriend, and then my husband, to feel about me. The reverence in which he talks about this woman. I want to be wanted, I want to be loved, I want him to want me to stay. I am manifesting this love in my life. I am seriously going to spend this personal new year putting real effort into this manifestation. I feel like I have been laxed about it. I tell people that I want to be in love and get married. I think about it, but no action to support this goal. No more fucking around, not literally. I mean, no more hoping that love will be delivered to my door. I am going out to get it. My friend already wrote out my wedding guest list for 2028. I have to make it come true.

 

Purpose

I have previously read that maybe our purpose is not one big thing or mission that we need to accomplish on this Earth, maybe it is all the little things and ways that we do to make people feel loved, seen, and uplifted. I have been embracing this tidbit and living my life to be a blessing to others. But I still feel unfulfilled. I feel that there is more and that I have not discovered my true purpose. This is actually one of the reasons why I started therapy. All three of my focuses for 49 are why I am in therapy. I want to leave this planet knowing I have served God as He intended me to. Beyoncé’s I Was Here will be my guiding light to learn my purpose and serve in my purpose. The first time I heard this song, it really touched my heart and occasionally I come back and listen to it. It just seems like the perfect song to express my desire for purpose.


Connection

When I said I liked Joseph Solomon, I really meant that. For my spiritual connection and building my relationship with God, my song is Find Me by Joseph Solomon. Joseph says, “Lend my ears your voice.” That is the first line of the song. It’s perfect! I want to hear God’s voice. I want to know at all times  when He is speaking to me. And I don’t want to just listen, I want to do what he is instructing me to do. I crave a deeper connection with God, but I also fear it at the same time. I fear that I will lose myself. When in reality isn’t that what we are supposed to do? Even in this moment as I am typing this, I realize I think too highly of myself. Lol. I think that who I am is better than who God calls me to be. Smh. This ego is blocking my blessings. I want all my blessings. I want God’s continued grace, favor, and mercy. I want God to lead me. I want to be connected. After writing this, I know I have to get over myself. God has not given up on me. He continues to find me. I need to find who I am in His eyes.

 

I want this personal new year to be a breakthrough year. I want to know that I haven’t just started along the path, but that I am easing on down the road. And I mean easing 😆. Everything doesn’t have to be hard. As a 49 year old woman (damn I’m old), I want more life, more love, more books, more music, more connections. I want more!  I want to be well and whole, and I wish for you to be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚