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I realize that if I don’t write everyday I’m just not going to write. Or write and not publish. The result is the same either way. Lol. So I am going back to writing every day, starting today. Technically,  Saturday. There is a chance that y’all are going to get sick of me. I’m fine with that. Pick and chose the days you want to read and leave the rest there. Just don’t be asking me something I wrote about. I’m going to be like, Read the blog! 😆

I have decided to start therapy. I have always said I needed to go, I just wasn’t sure how a therapist would be able to help me. I’m still not sure, but it can’t hurt. I feel like I am self-aware and I know my issues.  I also know, that I don’t really want to change. Another reason why I couldn’t see how therapy would help. What made me finally decide to give therapy a try is, I am stuck. I am struggling creatively, I enjoy spending time with myself a little too much, and I want to get married. This version of me is not relationship ready. Maybe therapy can drill down to the issue, besides me being set in my ways. I want a more open life with more experiences. I want to do things I have never done and find enjoyment again in the things I used to do. I’m getting old and life just seems to be happening to me. I gotta take my plane off autopilot and start flying again. I know, corny, but you understand what I am saying.

I guess if I don’t get anything out of it, at least I tried. Now, the trick is to actually find a therapist that is a good fit for me. I need someone who doesn’t have an issue with me cussing. What a weird ass requirement 😂. It isn’t the only requirement, just one of them. The main requirement is someone who accepts my insurance! Wish me well. And I will be praying that God leads me to the therapist that is right for me. I will also be praying for you too. Stay well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚

Let’s address the elephant in the room…America. I didn’t want to talk about politics on my blog for a couple reasons. One, I have never really been big into politics and do not feel like I have an informed enough opinion to speak on it. Two, if we are of different minds, I’m not going to sway you and you are not going to sway me. So, I have avoided the topic. Things have gotten out of hand and I just can’t keep quiet any longer.

If you are not upset by what is going on in this world, something is wrong with you. Even if the decisions being made don’t directly affect you, to know that others are suffering and your heart doesn’t go out to them and their families, you ain’t cool. These so-called Christians going to church regularly and then celebrating what is happening to families in America. To say that anything being done in the name of God is blasphemous. They must have the Trump edited Bible. I’ll be honest, I have been a heathen lately. I rarely go to church and I only watch a Bible study online when I remember. But I know one thing, the decisions being made and the reasons behind them are not of God.

I knew that there were people out there that carried hate in their hearts, another ungodly trait, but to see it at this extreme of a level, oddly enough is shocking to me. My heart hurts more and more every day when I read the stories of the world. The deal is, there will come a time when America is on the other side of this. All of us with the sense God gave us, will have to look at these so-called Christians who have exhibited non-Christian like behavior and make a decision. To go with the New Testament teachings and turn the other cheek and forgive, or to go with the Old Testament teachings, eye for an eye and tooth for a tooth. I am not going to tell you how to respond or what to do. Me personally, fuck ’em all. Including the ones that said they didn’t know all of this was going to happen and the ones that have flipped sides because they are now affected. There is nothing they can say to me to make it right. I will never look at these people the same. This is not said with hate, but indifference. Just as they don’t care, I won’t when their time comes. The difference, the people they want hurt and stripped of their rights, don’t deserve it, and they will deserve everything that will come to them.

Sheesh, I have been sitting on that too long. And there is more that I can say, but I think if you didn’t know, now you know what side I am on. And if you are not on the same side as me, I recommend you keep it to yourself. I have just enough petty in me 🤏🏾, that if you come for me, I will respond. For all of us with the sense God gave us, be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚