Ebony on Everything

I love dogs. I really love dogs. Recently, I dogsat my niece, TT Jr., and she let know that even though I love dogs, I do not want to own one. I don’t have the time or the energy. Hell, I am barely taking care of myself, it would be so unfair to put anything else in the mix.

Within the week of me having her, she started her cycle (Yuck), ran off twice to chasing after rabbits, jumped the fence, made me fall, and peed on the floor because I wouldn’t let her go outside to chase rabbits.  I had to come straight home because I didn’t want to leave her in the house by herself for too long. She spent all the time outside, sniffing every blade of grass and minding everyone else’s business. And she had doggy Covid aka kennel cough and would wake up coughing all night. It’s like having a damn kid. No, thank you.

I am going to strike out dog mom from my list of goals. Lol. I am pretty sure I want to be married. Like 80% sure. Then, I kept my niece and I my assuredness dropped by about 20%. I want to make my husband’s life better by being in it. Yet, I am going to have to do things I don’t want to do. Listen when he talks even though I just want to listen to music. Consider his feelings. Take care of someone else. And we just established I am bad at taking care of myself. All this time, I felt like I hadn’t met my husband because he was out living his life, when he should be looking for me 😆. Now, I have to accept the truth. I am the problem. God is looking at me like, “Girl, you aint ready. Quit asking me.” Why would He waste a perfectly good man on a selfish heffa like me? Damn.

I do feel as if my feelings will change, and I will be more receptive to being in a relationship and doing all the things. But right now, no. No dogs, no man, no kids. TT Jr. made me see the light. So, I guess I can’t complain anymore about my unmarried state or talk shit about my future husband not being here😔. Realizing that my behavior has been very passive-aggressive towards him is another indicator I’m not ready. Smh. Anyways, be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚

When I open my blogging app, there is a daily prompt from Day One. I didn’t know what Day One was until today, even though I have answered the daily prompts before. Day One is an app that people can journal in, do voice recordings, or add pictures. It actually sounds like a cool app. Sometimes, I like the prompts, and other times, I am indifferent. I usually already have my topic that I plan on writing about, so I skip it. Today, I am drawing a blank, so I am going to use one of their prompts. It is an older prompt because I wasn’t vibing with the one today.

Day One Prompt – August 4th

List 30 things that make you happy.

I don’t think I have thirty, but I will do my best. This is in no particular order.

• Sunrises
• Sunsets
• Looking at the waves in the ocean
• Snapping great pictures of nature
• Coffee
• Music
• Black nail polish when my nails are short
• Crocheting
• Putting together puzzles
• Driving on the expressway when I can speed, but chill at the same time
• Key Lime Cheesecake
• My family, as a whole
• My friendships, both male and female (but I do believe my female besties are my soul mates)
• A well written book
• Journals, I am obsessed
• Walking through a bookstore or library
• When I do my hair and it turns out exactly like I wanted it to
• Snoopy
• My orange couch
• My shower curtain
• A candle that still smells good when I light it
• The candle that sounds like a fireplace
• My Rachel Ray cookware
• My tea kettle, that I still haven’t used because it is so pretty
• The chair in my room. It is so comfortable.
• My Snoopy purse and wallet
• My Wifi password 😆
• My new chopsticks with a ninja print
• My Snoopy soap dispenser
• My blog

I did it! These are just the things that make me happy today. I could probably find a few more tomorrow. It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. What are 30 things that make you happy? It can be anything, big or small. Don’t underestimate the power of little things. I might do this more often. It actually made me feel good. If you are comfortable, share your list with me when you take it. Be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚