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I had to slide this post in before the end of this year. And I mean, I am barely making it. I ought to be ashamed of myself, and I am a little bit 😆.

This will be my last Dating Diaries for a while. I have to be honest with myself and you, I just can’t do this shit right now. I guess I don’t want it enough. If I did, I would put more energy and time into it. I have currently had my profile on snooze for the last 3 months and I’m just going to delete it. Maybe sometime next year I will focus on dating.

This Dating Diaries story is kinda old. It happened back in August. I wrote it out, but it was long. So I never published it. Yet, it is such a good story, I felt I had to share it. Except, I did a terrible job at telling it. I can’t tell y’all how many times I started, stopped, and started it again. The finished product was me giving up 😆. I couldn’t do it anymore. I thought about recording it again, but I remembered the trauma from that day. So here is the video.

And here is a blooper reel.

Believe me, I could have included an hour of bloopers, but I will spare y’all from second hand embarrassment 😳😂.

Anyway, I hope you are bringing in the new year in a way that makes you happy. Whether it is sitting at home watching TV, in church, at a party, or sleeping. I hope you are doing exactly what you want to do. Be well and whole. Happy New Year’s Eve 🍾. Much love 🧡💚

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I don’t know why I decided to title these posts Dating Diaries, because I have not been on a single date 😆. I guess the title sounded good. Well, I have still been sticking with Bumble. Probably because I’m too lazy to set up a dating profile on any other app or I genuinely just don’t care. I will let you decide. One day I went on the app and they had a deal that I took advantage of. For $2.49, $2.68 with tax, I could see my Beeline for 24 hours. The Beeline is men who have swiped right on me, but I have not swiped right on them. Remember, I said in Dating Diaries, Vol. 1, the cost to see this special group of men was $34.99, so $2.68 was a deal.

To start off with, these men that I seen in my Beeline were not the same men I had seen on the app. These jerks have been holding out on me! At this point, I think they allowed me to see my Beeline to encourage me to pay that damn $35. I’m still not going to do it though 😆. As I looked through the men, some of them were not in my general area therefore I probably wouldn’t have seen them anyway. I did set a mileage limit. Others wanted kids and a couple were atheist/agnostic. I would not have swiped right on them even if I had seen them. There was a couple of really attractive men that I wanted to ask if having kids was a non-negotiable 😬. I didn’t do it though. Yet, I’m trying to figure out why these men in their mid forties want kids this late in life?!? Shit, it is time to live it up. Yes, I realize these men are not for me and I can respect their decisions.

Here I am with options and I am doing absolutely nothing with it. What is wrong with me? I need to like them back and send them a message. These $2 and some change are about to go to waste. I had to text my dating guru friend Delanea. She always manages to put a positive spin to this dating app crap. After some encouragement from Delanea, I liked 3 men back and sent my standard Hello. It fell flat. No one responded 😂. To be fair, I do not know when these men had actually liked me. It doesn’t give you a date. I guess my time was up. So, I am back at square one.

I am seriously considering asking my friends to run my dating profile. I want them to match me with men, set up dates, and all I have to do is show up. I never thought I would say that. I don’t want them to act like it’s me. I want them to be honest and say they are doing this on my behalf. I think a man would be very disappointed to meet me if they were speaking for me. They have the skills of flirting and sweet talking which I lack. I am really considering this idea 🤔. I think there is actually an app designed for friends to assist friends. I’m going to look into it.

In the meantime, I’ll just keep swiping left until I find someone to swipe right on. Maybe one day, I’ll create a profile on a different dating app. Maybe one day, I’ll match with someone and actually go out on a date. And then I will have earned the right to call these posts Dating Diaries. I am still trying to stay in this dating game. As the random cute guy said, I’m down to my last resort 😂. Stay well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚

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I remember when I used to deliver meals to senior citizens, I met a man on my route. He was a postal carrier. I was in the lobby waiting for my senior to buzz me up and he was putting the mail in the boxes. We spoke and something just clicked. It so happened we had met years ago at a summer program when we were in high school. We exchanged numbers and even dated for a little while. It didn’t last and I’m not sure who was the problem in that equation, I would say both of us. I want that again. Well, not the part where we didn’t work out. The meet cute part. The genuine interaction and chemistry. Does it happening that way anymore?

I have been using the dating app Bumble. For those who have no clue, Bumble is the dating app that allows women to make the first move. The men may swipe right (which means they are interested), but unless you swipe right on him as well, you will not know who is interested. Now for the small price of $34.99 a month, you can see who likes you without having to match with them. Once you match with a man, the woman has 24 hours to reach out and connect. I assume after the 24 hours, the match disappears. As I am writing this, two questions come to mind. One, who makes the first move when it is women seeking women or men seeking men? Second, can a person rematch if they miss the 24 hour window?

I don’t mind being the person to send a message. The issue is I don’t have any game. None at all. I just send a standard Hello. The last guy I matched with unmatched with me after I sent my Hello. I guess he wanted something more 🤷🏾‍♀️. There was another one I matched with that was a complete waste of time for both of us. I sent a message, he sent one back within the 24 hours and I responded and that was the end of that. I guess I’m not the only one terrible at this.

The first person I matched with seemed perfect. Well, not perfect, but you know what I mean. He was attractive, didn’t want kids and believed in God. He even stated in his bio he was interested in someone to attend church with and pray with. Oh, and he said he liked to grill. I love grilled food and a man that cooks because I’m greedy 😆. We texted back and forth and he had a sense of humor. Another plus. Then, he went MIA for a few days. One of my bad qualities is I ghost people. When I am done, I’m done. And I can take what I dish out. For some odd reason, this time I was annoyed that I was getting ghosted. I know it is nothing less than I deserved, but how dare he?!? So me being me, I texted him and asked him was he ghosting me 🤦🏾‍♀️. Of course, he denied it. Even got an attitude that I would suggest such a thing. He went on to communicate with me via text for about another week. But here we are, not texting or talking because he was ghosting me! He just didn’t like that I called him out on it.

This shit is so exhausting and I am only 3 matches in. How do people do this? There has to be a better way. I need to figure it out because this shit ain’t it. I’m going to keep pushing through, maybe just not on Bumble. I don’t think any one dating app is better than the other. I have exhausted the men on Bumble and I am tired of them recycling the men. No means No 😂. I am sure I will see some of the same men from Bumble on another dating app. Just a bunch of socially awkward, workaholics with no game, me included.

One day this will all pay off. That day is not coming soon enough though. I’m about to be a golden girl 😆. I guess I’ll just work on staying well and whole while I wait. You stay well and whole too. Much Love 🧡💚

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