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May 6, 2020May 9, 2020

May Days

St. Vincent Mercy Hospital, Toledo, Ohio

This year keeps chugging along and we here on earth are…aw hell I don’t know what we are doing. Lol. I have probably about 6 unfinished posts that I want to share. I didn’t know how to piece them together to get about 3 finished ones to share with you all. So I decided that I will do mini posts over the next few days to get this information out. Why not? Who said a blog post has to be 700+ words? Well somebody did but I’m just going to do what I want to do, as usual.

Everyone will have their day of reckoning. I believe in this strongly. I have had plenty of them in regards to my “bad” behavior. And since I don’t know how to behave I just had another one recently. I am the type of person who does not provide closure at the end of a relationship/friendship. When I am done with you, I’m done. I will just stop answering my phone or replying to any text messages. Yes, I know that this is not proper behavior but I never said I was proper. Or normal. Well I came into contact with someone that I behaved badly towards, on my job no less. Can we say awkward? It gets better. He was hired to do some work at my job. The only saving grace is I am on layoff. Maybe he will be done by the time I come back. Fingers crossed🤞🏽. Do you end a relationship properly or are you like me? I know I am not the only one. Hell they created a term for it, ghosting. Lol. And for the people who think that I would not be cool with that happening to me, I have been ghosted. I am fine with it. As I have said before I am not everyone’s cup of coffee, tea or whatever they drink.

My life manages to be boring and eventful all at the same time. I was involved in a car accident two Sundays ago going to do absolutely nothing. I had been in the house for more than 24 hours and I was getting restless which is normal for me. I was just going to sit on somebody’s water and just get some fresh air. Well I never made it. I am okay but my car is not. It is fixable so at this point I am just waiting to get it back.

Of course we are still in the middle or the beginning of a pandemic. We don’t rightly know what is to happen the next weeks, months or years. Cities are starting to open up some non-essential businesses and people are reporting back to work. It’s serious moments of uncertainty. Will the number of Coronavirus cases increase? And if so, what are the next steps? This seems never ending. I mean who thought that life would turn out like this? There is some good coming out of all this. I just applied and was granted a free 3 month scholarship to Code Academy. Code Academy is a website that teaches people how to code for different programs such as Javascript, Python, CSS, HTML and more. This is available for 100,000 displaced/furloughed workers. If you know anyone who can benefit from this offer, please pass this information along. They would have to go to codeacademy.com and create a profile to apply for this scholarship. I know next to nothing about coding but I can learn. And thanks to this opportunity, I will. Maybe I’ll create an app 🤔.

Looking back at this, I may reach 700+ words. Lol. But it doesn’t matter if I did or didn’t. I posted and that is what really matters. I don’t know how everyone is dealing with this pandemic but I hope that you are safe. I hope that your basic human needs are being met. And I hope that you have found a sense of peace in all this uncertainty. Well I am off of work so if you need to talk, I am here. Continue to be well and whole. Love you all.

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April 19, 2020May 10, 2020

God’s Gift: How Will You Use Yours?

God gave us free will and we are using it in all the wrong ways. We are using it for racism, sexism, xenophobia, and homophobia. Instead of using it to make informed decisions about people of other cultures, sex, race and sexual orientation. People are allowing themselves to be brainwashed by what they hear others are saying or what they read. I am always in a constant struggle to make sure that I do not allow the actions of one person to affect how I look at all people. It can be hard to watch a video with blatant racism towards an individual just because of their skin color and not form a ball of hatred that expands and grows to encompass all of that particular set of people. But I don’t want to become hard hearted. I do not want to become like the people I am speaking about in this post.

The truth is God gave us all the physical attributes that define us as human beings. He gave us our skin color, hair texture and eye color. These are things that we have no control over and even if I did, I wouldn’t change it. But it is hurtful and mean to make assumptions or judge me by these things that I was born with. Yet people do it every day. Deciding and determining a person’s worth based on unchangeable characteristics. I just watched a video of a black man being beaten in China with metal poles. I would have been hurt and angry no matter what the person’s race was. I don’t believe in physical violence. But the fact that he was beaten for his skin color, which I possess as well, hits home. That could be me if I was over in China right now. That could be anyone who is labeled African/black. It does not matter which country or continent you are from. Black people of any nationality are being singled out and treated with disrespect due to the resurgence of the coronavirus in China. Now it’s all our fault 🙄.

I see all this talk about togetherness but it is a big ass joke. All the things the world has gone through before this did not inspire people to come together and neither will this. This is just another situation where the blame game will continue to exist and people will be treated unfair. Especially in America. We practice racism, sexism, xenophobia and homophobia on a daily basis. It is so ingrained in most people that they don’t even know that their actions are associated with these words. Then you have fake Christians that use Bible scriptures they interpreted just to justify their actions. When the main theme of the Bible is Love. It doesn’t say only love a particular set of people. It says love one another.

So back to free will. How do we use this fabulous option that God gave us to benefit others? Let’s get more informed on situations. Let us not take everything the media says as fact. I know if you have watched the news at any point in time in your life, you know that it sets a narrative and it is usually a distorted version of the truth. If you find yourself being sucked into the negativity, shut your TV off. It will allow you to process what you heard and dissect the information. Once you look at it, you may realize that majority of it is a bunch of he said, she said. No real facts. At this point you can do your own research and come to a more informed decision. Or you can pray about it and allow God to speak to you.

You can also reach out to people of different races, sex, religion, cultures and sexual orientation to see what their experiences are like. To be able to see the world through someone else’s eyes can give you an entirely new perspective. We can use free will to connect and offer help to someone who may be in need. And it doesn’t have to be a financial blessing. It can be a spiritual or emotional blessing. Someone may just need an encouraging word in these difficult times. Or for you to pray for them. We have to realize, life is still happening even while the world is consumed with a pandemic. So the problems I had before the pandemic or that occurred during the pandemic is still fighting to take me down.

I will say this time and time again. I believe that we were put on this earth to serve others. How we serve them is through the gifts God bestowed upon us. He still gave us free will to use these gifts as we choose. But why not choose to use them for good? Why not choose to open our hearts and hands to benefit others? Why not use this free will to choose to love instead of hate? Instead of making misinformed decisions about others just because they don’t look like us, worship like us, love who we love? Free will is one of the most important gifts God has given us. How will you use yours? Be well and whole. Much love to you all.

April 11, 2020

Hello Again

When I said I had nothing to talk about, that was kind of true. But I’m me, so there is always things to talk about. I have been feeling like shit. Brain fog makes it a little difficult to get your thoughts together and put it into coherent sentences. Lol. A symptom of MS that is definitely one of my least favorite. I have been off work all week and this is my first time writing which sucks because I’m going back to work on Monday. Whatever! I pretty much sat around watching pointless TV shows without accomplishing anything of value. I have been walking since it has warmed up a little bit. That is one good thing.

This post is just another check in. We are in the middle of a pandemic and the world as we knew it is over. This is a whole new reality. We are in a Marvel/DC comic with an alternate timeline/universe. I am not a comic book nerd but I am a fan of Marvel movies and The Flash. This is like Barry Allen/The Flash went back in time to save his mom and missed up everything on this Earth yet again. Lol. Damn Barry Allen! I am sure that is what happened. Now y’all can stop blaming it on the bats. As if…lol.

As I have said before I am an introvert so social distancing hasn’t been too hard for me. I feel bad for the extroverts in the world. I am okay with a simple phone call to have a quick chat with someone. However I am not okay with video chatting. I know what you look like. I don’t need to see your face. Unless it’s Chalupa, my niece. I love to see her little face. For all who are following the social distancing guidelines I commend you. Especially people who would have celebrated birthdays in the past weeks and those who have them in the coming weeks and months. I cannot leave out acknowledgement for all the essential team members that are helping to make this crisis manageable.

Then we have people who are going to the extreme while out in public. I have seen some of the craziest pictures of people online. There was a thread of people wearing things like a scuba mask with an oxygen tank, plastic bags over their faces (I thought you could suffocate like that), gallon water jugs cut to fit their heads and on and on. Seriously! If you don’t feel okay being outside with the general public, have your groceries delivered, duh. That way you are only interacting with one person. Today while driving I seen people with mask and gloves on in the car. What? Does your car have the Coronavirus? Stay y’all asses at home. Lol

In times like this it can be hard to see the bright side. I get it. This would be a great time to start a gratitude journal. Write down at least 3 things every day. I don’t care if it’s as simple as I have a roof over my head, food to eat and toilet paper to wipe my ass. The reality is some people don’t so therefore why not be grateful for even the obvious things. Not saying compare yourself to others, but just having a sense of awareness of what is right in your life. I believe that people have taken for granted all of life’s little pleasures. Now that a good portion of them have been taken away, it is a little hard. For some it is extremely difficult. So let’s focus on what we have instead of what we don’t have. It will brighten your day. Today I am grateful for the sun which recharges my internal batteries, the calm waters of Lake Erie and my car which allowed me to get out and enjoy these two things. Pretty simple, huh?

I know that there will be hardships following this crisis. People will lose their businesses and their jobs permanently. It breaks my heart. I want us as a people to keep this solidarity we are forming right now once this is over. We will need to help those who have lost get back on their feet. This right here goes to show there isn’t any real differences between human beings. All people of this world are facing the same pandemic. Every class of people, every race and nationality of people. No one is exempt. And no one should be excluded when it is time to rebuild. As I have said before, I hope we come out better for having gone through this.

“Resilience is accepting your new reality, even if it’s less good than the one you had before. You can fight it, you can do nothing but scream about what you’ve
lost, or you can accept that and try to put together something that’s good.”

-Elizabeth Edwards

Let’s put together something that is great! Live not in fear but with caution and continue to be well and whole. Much love to you all.