I love dogs. I really love dogs. Recently, I dogsat my niece, TT Jr., and she let know that even though I love dogs, I do not want to own one. I don’t have the time or the energy. Hell, I am barely taking care of myself, it would be so unfair to put anything else in the mix.
Within the week of me having her, she started her cycle (Yuck), ran off twice to chasing after rabbits, jumped the fence, made me fall, and peed on the floor because I wouldn’t let her go outside to chase rabbits. I had to come straight home because I didn’t want to leave her in the house by herself for too long. She spent all the time outside, sniffing every blade of grass and minding everyone else’s business. And she had doggy Covid aka kennel cough and would wake up coughing all night. It’s like having a damn kid. No, thank you.
I am going to strike out dog mom from my list of goals. Lol. I am pretty sure I want to be married. Like 80% sure. Then, I kept my niece and I my assuredness dropped by about 20%. I want to make my husband’s life better by being in it. Yet, I am going to have to do things I don’t want to do. Listen when he talks even though I just want to listen to music. Consider his feelings. Take care of someone else. And we just established I am bad at taking care of myself. All this time, I felt like I hadn’t met my husband because he was out living his life, when he should be looking for me 😆. Now, I have to accept the truth. I am the problem. God is looking at me like, “Girl, you aint ready. Quit asking me.” Why would He waste a perfectly good man on a selfish heffa like me? Damn.
I do feel as if my feelings will change, and I will be more receptive to being in a relationship and doing all the things. But right now, no. No dogs, no man, no kids. TT Jr. made me see the light. So, I guess I can’t complain anymore about my unmarried state or talk shit about my future husband not being here😔. Realizing that my behavior has been very passive-aggressive towards him is another indicator I’m not ready. Smh. Anyways, be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚
Freakin hilarious !
Don’t be bashing Queen Elizabeth, she was having a rough week. Just wanted a lil action. And When the right man finds you, you’ll be a submissive lil lady… or…..we’ll just be the Black Golden Girls and buy a house on the beach like we planned.