I keep thinking back to the day I did a grocery pickup, and when I opened my trunk, a glass jar with sauerkraut fell out on the pavement. I said a few choice cuss words and was calculating in my head the best possible way to get this mess up. Then a young man walked up, kinda (he had a full leg brace on his left leg), and offered to help me get the mess up. I, of course, was like, “Dude, you are about as bad as me. I don’t want you hurting yourself trying to help me.” Being the gentleman that he was, he insisted and proceeded to grab a towel out of his car. I had an empty bag, and he used the towel to pick up the shards of glass off the ground. He threw some glass into the bag, and a piece of sauerkraut popped up and landed on my cheek 😂. He took a corner of the towel and gently wiped the sauerkraut off my face. And I haven’t been the same since.
That was the cutest, sweetest thing a stranger has done for me. My heart 🥰. I hope that someone, somewhere, is thinking of a kind gesture I did, and their heart is full at the memory. I hope you all have had at least one experience such as this in your life. And if you haven’t, I pray that you will. Be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚
I stabbed myself. I stabbed myself twice. This happened a couple of weeks ago, but I am just now able to post it. No, I do not have a desire to unalive myself. And if I did, I promise you this would not be the method I use. It was traumatizing. Every time I look at my fingers, I get a little queasy. I have been having a one-sided battle with everything lately. I don’t know what the hell is going on. But I bring this up because I am struggling to wrap my mind around how people stab someone to death. I hate to say this, but there is a chance I may die if I am put in a me or you situation and knives are involved.
I could have passed out, not just from seeing my blood coming out at an alarming rate, but because of the pain. Mind you, it was a small stabbing due to the avocado pit moving and the knife going through the avocado, striking my finger, twice. Don’t ask. Due to MS, I have decreased sensation in my hands, so the pain could have been worse. To think about inflecting that type of pain on another person disturbs me. To think about doing it repeatedly, has me distressed.
I’m going to look at stabbing deaths a lot differently going forward. So, if we are ever in a me or you situation, just shot me. Please don’t stab me. I can’t take it. And if I live through it, can you imagine how traumatized I would be. Anyhoo, watch out for those slippery avocado pits. Be well and whole. Much Love 🧡💚
P.S. No, I’m not losing it. I am really just traumatized and I needed to talk about it. This incident actually might have me going to therapy. Maybe it is bringing up some other shit I don’t know about.
I have finally created a playlist on a Sunday that features Christian music. It shouldn’t have taken me this long. Smh. Honestly, I was having a hard time picking songs. They all were slower tempo and I wanted to include some upbeat, clap your hands music. Now, that I set this 30 days of post, I had to go with what I had. I hope you all are not disappointed. Maybe, next Christian music post, I will include the praise songs I like.
God – Donald Lawrence and the Tri-City Singers featuring Natalie Grant
Years upon years ago, Donald Lawrence and the Tri-City Singers performed at the church I was attending. I purchased a CD and preceded to play it out as I do all songs that I like. This particular song I gravitated to so much, even though this version was not on the cd. I like this one because she sings it with so much feeling, she pulls you in. My favorite part of the song is, “Whatever you do with me, is alright. You have my total trust.” I am not there yet, but that is the relationship I want to have with God. I want to not just accept God’s will in my life, I want to trust it is all for a greater purpose. That it leads me to the next level and the next level.
Didn’t You Know – Donnie McClurkin
I don’t even know what to say about this song. It touches my heart, and it makes me emotional. When I am doubting (not the correct word, but I am drawing a blank) God’s love and presence, it brings me back. It makes me aware of what I have to be grateful for. The big and little things that God has done for me even when I don’t see it.
God’s Not Done With You
I have limitations and there are times that I cannot see past them. Yet, I realize that my continued existence on this earth means I still have purpose, even if I don’t know what my purpose is. This song is just a gentle reminder.
Fix My Eyes – for KING & COUNTRY
I really like the words of this song. They are so relevant to what is happening in America right now. Unfortunately, people have lost this message and way of thinking. The total opposite is being done. I want to still believe in humanity as a whole, but it is a struggle. For the people who are like me, we have to fix our eyes on God and live a life that serves others and makes us proud of who we are. It is so important for us to let the world know we are still here. It is not all bad.
The songs included on this post will be on my Spotify, but not in the regular Ebony’s Playlist. They will be in a separate playlist called Gospel. I have moved them to the top of the list just for you. Feel free to check out the whole playlist if you like. I want to continue to post my Christian music favorites. I’m not all k-pop and mellow music. I hope these songs uplift you and speaks to your soul. Be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚
