Category: Me

 

I rarely talk about my health or issues that I have because that is not the purpose of my blog. My mission will continue to be uplifting, promoting self-love and acceptance of ourselves and others. But I have been sorely absent from posting content besides my Black Facts and I have fallen off as of a couple of weekends ago So, I guess an explanation is due at this point.

As most of you know, unless you are new, I have multiple sclerosis (MS). I manage to do well with MS, but occasionally I will have an issue. I had been under the impression I was in an active relapse for a little over a month. What does that look like? A little different from past relapses. Extreme fatigue, memory loss, brain fog (hard to focus, concentrate), muscle spasms, numb toes, balance and equilibrium off, and constant tripping. A couple of other symptoms, but these are the main ones.

How does this effect me? Well, most days I realize I am scraping by, a shell of myself. Writing everything down because if you ask me a couple hours later, I will not remember. Coming home after work and doing absolutely nothing because I used all the energy and concentration I had at work. Limited activity due to issues with walking, tripping and legs feeling heavy and tired. Worst, no reading or writing.

What is the solution? A three day IV steroid treatment. The purpose of the treatment is to tamp down the inflammation that is on 10. Once treatment is completed, hopeful I will regain all of my previous abilities before this particular episode. There is a possibility it may not. It is also a possibility I’m not even having an episode and the MS has just progressed. Who the hell knows?

I actually started writing this blog post when I was receiving my second treatment. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since I received my treatment. How am I now? A little better, but not as I was. So, at this point, I need to make adjustments and learn to work around my new reality. Yeah, it sucks! It really fucking sucks. Yet, I am okay. I have learned through constant reframing of my thoughts to be grateful. Grateful that even though I trip, I rarely fall. Grateful that even though my short term memory is taking a hit, my long term memory is still intact. Grateful that I have friends and family who are always there for me and praying for me.

I honestly don’t know how to completely adjust to these new changes. I am working on it though. Please be patient with me. I will be back in full force soon. I still have lots to say, it’s just getting my thoughts down on paper in cohesive sentences is the challenge. Writing is something I have always done and I always want to do so I am not giving up.

Thank you for your continued support. Thank you for your understanding. Be well and whole. Much Love 🧡 💚

So I just happen to be 44 today. Damn,  I know, I’m old. I don’t feel that old and thanks to genetics, I don’t look that old either. When I think about it I am not really sure what 44 is suppose to look like or feel like. With that said, I may just look 44. And that is okay because I’m cute 😆. I’ll take it!

You know how some people get sad as they get a year older because they think they should be farther along in life. I haven’t exactly suffered from that but this year, I feel a little something. I feel unbalanced (and not just because I have MS). I am literally leaving the only home I have every known and starting completely over. No job and no real plan 😬. Crazy right?!? Yet here I am, just out here. 

I have no idea what Book 44 will contain, but I do have some expectations. For example, a husband, dammit! Lol. I expect my writing to get better and to finish my first book. I expect to travel more and to take pictures of all my adventures. I expect to be a better aunt to my niece since I will be closer to her now with the move. I expect to continue my advocacy work for the limited. I expect to finally figure out what the hell I want to be when I grow up. I expect to continue to grow my legacy of love. And on and on and on. I expect to not stop!

Each year I feel as if my life is just beginning. I feel as if I have more time to do what I was put on this earth to do. And this year is no exception. The only exception is I want to be intentional. I don’t want to loosely set goals and pray that they will happen. I want to set goals, take action steps to accomplish those goals and pivot when needed. I believe I can do that.

Well, Happy Birthday to me 🥳!!! As your next book approaches, what are some of your expectations? Goals? And how do you plan on accomplishing them? I would love to hear them! You can always comment in the box below or shot me an email at elsims27@yahoo.com. Be well and whole. Much love 🧡💚

I know that this is a personal blog but at the same time I feel as if some things are too personal. My goal is to uplift and inspire you. Some of my stories don’t fall in this category. I don’t ever want to use this blog like people use Facebook. Venting all their frustrations and whining about all their problems. I usually unfollow those kinds of people.

But one of my other goals with this blog is to help people know they are not alone.  Sometimes we feel like we are the only person that experiences certain things. Of course we aren’t. But if no one tells their tale how do we know? That is what I am here for. I will tell my tales, good, bad, crazy, sometimes unbelievable and usually funny.

At the same time, my tales can be sad, realistic and uninspiring. Too much of real life. Yet, these stories also need to be told. People relate and connect to sad stories, probably more than the good ones. I know it makes me feel seen. It also fills me with empathy for others. It makes me want to reach out to that person and let them know they are not alone.

I say all this to let you know, I want to connect with you on a different level. I want to tell my sad tales. But I don’t want to overwhelm you with them. I just hope that with me sharing some of the other side, you will feel seen. You will know that you are not alone. We, as human beings on this Earth, are going to go through shit. It’s unavoidable. So sometimes our shit is the same shit.

You have been forewarned. Sad shit ahead 😆. If you can relate to any of my sad posts and you want to connect, please feel free to reach out. I’m here for you. Now, I may not respond the same day but I will definitely respond back. Being well and whole isn’t acting as if nothing is wrong. Acknowledging when we are off track is part of being well and whole. Allowing ourselves to feels those feelings and get to the other side is the key to staying well and whole. I want for you what I want for me, to be well and whole. Much love 🧡💚